tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27028792239197171152011-07-28T15:52:09.961-07:00After an early miscarriage, it has been over 12 months of trying again. This is my secret blog to help me through this path of ups and downs. I hope someone reading this will find comfort in my ramblings knowing she is not alone.Baby Wantedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09227812511149155433noreply@blogger.comBlogger191100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2702879223919717115.post-81118991359951367552010-02-08T14:21:00.000-08:002010-02-08T14:48:41.661-08:00

Today is CD1.  Which means my Dr was completely wrong and missed that I had ovluated before she did the ultrasound.  WTF.  So the whole issue on the fact that I ovulate late and I need Clomid was completely wrong and not needed.  I left a message for my Dr telling her I thought I ovulated on CD12 and asked where we could get DH a SA. Hopefully she will call back soon. This past weekend I brought

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My sister-in-law just found out that she will soon lose her baby.  Her ultrasound showed the fetus had stopped growing at 5 weeks and her hormone levels are not where they should be.  I hurt so bad for her.  I am an absolute mess right now.  Good thing my boss is out today. It makes me wonder, and I'm sorry if this sounds selfish, if this is why it happened to me.  If God put me through my

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Tomorrow is 10dpo - I think.  My chart has been so weird this past month, that I really have no idea what's going on.  But I'm still going take a test.   Maybe I'll take one now... hee hee.  I'm insane.

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Yep, got a fortune cookie today.  It didn't say anything about good fortune, wealth, or happiness.  It said "Your efforts are budding - results will appear soon"  WTH?  Talk about playing with my mind and my emotions!  It did make me smile though... even though it doesn't say if they were going to be good or bad results...hmmm.

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Now I understand the stress that my DH has been under with this TTC, work, and his family's health.  But last night and this morning was the wrong time to express that stress. I am on CD16.  I usually ovulate on CD14 or CD16, and this month I know it wasn't on CD14 from the ultrasound.  So, I'm expecting to ovulate today.  I was so excited yesterday because I had found some Instead Cups at the

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1 Once Jesus was in a certain place praying. As he finished, one of his disciples came to him and said, “Lord, teach us to pray, just as John taught his disciples.” 2 Jesus said, “This is how you should pray: “Father, may your name be kept holy. May your Kingdom come soon. 3 Give us each day the food we need, 4 and forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us. And don’t let us

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Today I went in for the ultrasound of my ovaries and uterus. I went in there pretty nervous that something major would be found, but when I met the ultrasound tech she made me feel much better.  She was chipper and sweet. The first thing she told me was I had a "beautiful uterus"!  She said it was exactly what she was hoping to see... a nice young normal uterus.  Then she moved to my Right

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Below are a few poems a kind friend sent to me a few months back. My Precious Little Baby, Your face I've never seen. Your skin I've never touched before, Nor held you close to me. You lived inside my body, But only for a while; Till Jesus softly whispered, "Come home my little child." You must have been a special child; If God needed you up there. Because heaven is a better home, It's beauty

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My husband has now been on FertilAid for men for 1 week. Here is what I've noticed (Warning TMI): He says it has greatly increased his (already high) libido - he even got an erection while at work.. which has never happened before. After BD his erection lasts for about 10 mins longer than normal I've noticed his ejaculate is thinner. Not sure if this is good or not? I'll keep this updated as

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I've decided to teach myself to knit.  It will be good for me to keep my mind busy with something other than pregnancies right now. So I went to Walmart and bought a "I Taught Myself To Knit" kit.  It came with a pair of needles and instructions to knit a scarf.  Once I have mastered the scarf, I would really like to knit baby blankets for my co-worker and my sister-in-law. I'm so very excited

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A couple days ago my sister-in-law announced her pregnancy to the family.  I'm very happy for them, but at the same time I can't help but think it should be me.  I have just felt down the past few days.  I think I'm having a hard time copeing with my coworker's pregnancy and my s-i-l's pregnancy at the same time.  It came so easily for them... 1st month after getting off the pill.  My husband

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I came straight home, took a test... ofcourse it came out negative.  I figured if I was pregnant it would atleast show a faint line... so I went to the local liquor store, invited some friends over and drank a whole bottle of wine by myself.  I had a great time... but this morning I'm wishing I would have slowed it down.  Well, here's to hoping next month is more promising.  We'll see if the

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My periods have always been long and heavy.  5-7 days before I was on the pill, while I was on the pill and after I stopped taking the pill.  Normally it starts with 3-4 days of light spotting followed by 1-2 heavy days, 2-3 meadium days, 1-3 light days and usually 1 day of light spotting. This month, so far, it has been 3 days - 1 heavy(ish), 1 medium, and 1 light.  WTF is going on with my

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My sister-in-law will be announcing her pregnancy to the rest of the family tomorrow.  Beautiful.  Actually I'm really happy for them.  She's almost 5 years younger than me and is just recently married.  I thought there would be no way she would... but here we are.  If it was a year ago I would be livid right now, but I'm kind of excited to have another little baby around. I made the mistake of

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10 Things you should never say to a woman who has had a miscarraige: 1. There was probably something wrong with it. 2.  Did you drink caffine?  You're not suppposed to drink green tea either. 3.  There are many women who have had a miscarriage and never know. 4. Well now you can try for another one. OR  You can always have another one. 5.  Atleast it was early. 6.  You still have your

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Of course Aunt Flow came for a visit last night, and of course she brought horrible cramps that kept me from sleeping.  Ugh.  I guess another cycle here I come. I was so hopeful yesterday.  I usually start af in the mornings and when I hadn't seen any signs of her by 2:00pm.. I remembered I had a left over hpt in my purse.  So I waited until the coast was clear and everyone was occupied in their

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Today is a low day.  I'm not sure why.  I might not have gotten enough sleep, or it could be pms coming on.  Or maybe it's because my coworker and sister-in-law are newly pregnant.   Whatever it is I need to be pulled out of this slump. I was looking through an online group I recently came upon.  Of course it is the normal TTC over 12 months group, but these ladies don't sit and complain as much

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I have been holding out talking to my OBGYN about our no luck with TTC ever since my last yearly pap.  It was around June 09 when it had only been around 6 months.  I mentioned to her that we still weren't pregnant and I didn't understand why.  Her only response was "well I went through 7 years of infertility so I know you feel".  SHOOT ME WHERE I STAND.  I couldn't believe she would just shoot

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Today begins a new chapter in my  life.  Today I will vent to no one but this blog.  I'm tired of the silence, I'm tired of not knowing what to say, and I'm tired of crying alone. Here is my story: September 2007 - I married a wonderful man.  He's kind, carring and I feel very lucky to have him.  Since day 1 we have always talked about having literally hundreds of kids - ok not literally, but

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