Now I understand the stress that my DH has been under with this TTC, work, and his family's health. But last night and this morning was the wrong time to express that stress.
I am on CD16. I usually ovulate on CD14 or CD16, and this month I know it wasn't on CD14 from the ultrasound. So, I'm expecting to ovulate today. I was so excited yesterday because I had found some Instead Cups at the store, and I couldn't wait to use them! As soon as I got home I even tried one out to see how it felt, and I wanted to get it down before I needed to put it in after our BD. But of course DH decided to fall asleep at 7:30pm - ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? It was almost as if he had purposfully fallen asleep because he knew how excited I was about BDing.
I just let it go and figured he would wake up knowing we needed to BD. Nope, instead he woke up, got straight out of bed and started throwing a fit about how stressed out he was. I mean seriously?? Does he think I just have a walk in the park going to work everyday and seeing new ultrasounds from my coworker, and hearing about every new symptom my sister-in-law has? I just layed there and didn't say a word. I really didn't want to fight with him about it.
So I'm totally bummed today thinking we may have missed the opportunity to get a good amount of semen inside to be ready for ovulation... even worse, my temp went up today. Not alot where it would be obvious that I ovulated, but it didn't dip like it would getting ready for O.
DH just called appologizing and saying he would "make it up to me". I thought he wanted this as much as I did... I guess not. Maybe I should just take a break.. or maybe just quit doing everything I have. This sucks! Now I'm just praying we BD tonight and I O while I'm sleeping. I guess that's the last chance we have to make it work this month.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
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